CHAPTER 6: DO YOU EVER THINK OF ME?

I was heartbroken when Paul walked out on me Christmas of 1975.  I lost my appetite.  I couldn’t stop crying. The first week of January 1976 Mother had an appointment for a root canal.  I went with her to the dentist.  We were sitting in the waiting room.  I was thinking about Paul.  All of […]

Dreams May Fade Only To Become A Reality Later

My blog, A BAD MARRIAGE IS FATTENING, is not strictly dedicated to weight loss. It’s a blog about my bad marriage, and it’s a blog about hope. And ultimately it’s a blog about women empowering themselves to be the person they were born to be and not to ever forsake themselves.

Chapter 5: The Weeping Heart

Even though Paul had paid for our apartment through January 31st, I had to move out.  There were just too many memories.  Too many dreams that now never would be.  Tearfully I called my parents. I sat in the apartment like a zombie while Mom and Dad packed all my belongings into boxes and moved […]

Chapter 4: Lost In My Fantasy

The year was 1972 when Paul told me he didn’t love me.  My relationship with Paul continued on because I was a woman who told herself fantasies, as women often do, when they don’t want to know the truth. The fantasy I told myself was that Paul really loved me, but he was scared of […]

Chapter 3: Were There Red Flags?

Were there red flags that warned me my future husband was not the right husband for me? There were many red flags. But when you’re not looking for red flags you don’t see them. The only flag I saw had the words “Marry Paul” printed on it. I told myself fantasies, as women do, when they don’t want to know the truth.

Permission To Fail

I made a commitment that every Monday I would weigh-in and report my weight.  I did weigh-in last Monday, February 1st, and I weighed 224 pounds.  I had lost 1 pound.  That meant I was down 18 pounds from my first weigh-in on January 1st when I had weighed 242 pounds.  Even though I had […]